I take great pride in my work and do my work with integrity and honesty. I work from Soul and take a heart centred approach and always put myself out there to create a sacred space for all I come into contact with. I have been called many things, some of which include; too romantic or too positive. I don’t mind what people think, however, when their expectations take over the whole event (whether it be a reading, healing or through my creative work or counselling) things then seem to take turn for the worst.

I will give you an example of what happened to me a while ago.

I had a client come in for her appointment for a reading. I knew, as I was preparing something felt different. I allowed the energy to flow and just released it without thinking too much of it. When she arrived, I instantly felt an erratic energy about her, within her aura. Not dangerous, just impatient. So, we began the reading and she looked at me square in the eye and stated that she was there for a particular reason and that she was seeking particular answers. Ahh, I thought, here we go. . I always take a couple of minutes at the beginning of the reading to explain how I work and to advise that I do not make things up and only relay back to them what I am sensing. I feel this allows the person to understand exactly where they stand and what may come of the reading. I also express that readings (and all healing work) is about confirmation and healing and that they may not get the answer they are looking for, although some do not even have a question in mind, they just want to hear certain things to make them feel better. I understand all this and I understand there is some sort of expectation around having a reading. However, this particular person had not only expectations of the outcome and who they wanted to speak to on the other side, but also placed a lot of pressure on me to obtain the answers. I want to make it clear that when someone pushes this way energetically, they PUSH THE SPIRITS AWAY! They block the path of clear messages as they are only focused on ONE OUTCOME. As a medium, this can become very frustrating as it blocks the messages coming through. As much as I try to allow the messages to come through, the push from this person was so dominant that they (spirits) all just stepped back and let her go through her own process. There was a lot of anger and frustration on her part as she was not getting her answers and I felt this deeply. Each time they tried to steer the messages, she would put her back up and say she didn’t want to hear that, she wanted to hear something else! Unfortunately for her, she did not experience the benefits of the healing and confirmation because her ego got in the way and chose to block the flow of the reading. On top of this, she was constantly comparing the messages to others!
She had expectations of what this reading would give her! So, the reading continued and many things came up, as they do, which she did not want to hear. She basically then snapped at me and said that she didn’t want to hear about this part of her life and she wanted to know what was happening with something else. She then continued to compare
my work with the work of others. In this moment, I had one of two choices. I could have gotten angry and told her to leave or; just continue giving the messages as they came. I took the latter, as I realised, it was her pain and worry and fear overcoming her, although it saddened me that she was not hearing the messages as they came through which were extremely relevant to her situation. Her comparison was her anger of not getting what she expected and wanted and it was all on her. Once she left, I did have to do a clearing as I felt the stagnant energy left behind. I felt angry that I could allow something like this to happen and also sad for her as she was feeling really lost. I let it all go and continued on my day.

The expectation that this woman had was to get answers she was not yet ready for. She was seeking the truth and wanted more than confirmation of her situation. she also was trying to get rid of the responsibility of taking on the situation personally by trying to put it on me! Luckily, I didn’t take it on. I allowed her to vent and take out her frustration, but at the same time recognised that her expectation of the reading was too high which actually pushed the answers for her further and further away. I tried to get her to relax, although she was so wound up she would not listen to reason. She continued to justify her anger and continued to compare me to others and wondered why the messages were not coming through. I had to laugh later on whilst thinking about this case, as all the answers did come through, just not the way she expected! So, she then missed out on a golden opportunity to grow, expand and become more aware and allowed her ego to take over the whole process.

Expectations can have devastating effects on your life. They can create an illusion of what reality is not. I am not talking about the expectation that the sun will rise in the morning or set at night. Or the many other basic expectations of life as presented. I am talking about the unrealistic expectation of someone else to give you something you crave to fill a void in your life where you are too afraid to look for yourself! Go back and re-read that statement. It is a powerful statement. Sometimes, the reason we put so much pressure on others and expectations of them is because we find something in our lives unsatisfying and instead of dealing with it in the moment, we look outside ourselves to ‘fix’ the situation and ‘make it all better’. We want answers. And, wanting answers is good. It is great. However, having the expectation that someone with an ability to see, predict and foretell to give them to you when you are not ready to hear them is another kettle of fish altogether. The pressure pushes you away. The ability is there, but the expectation to hear something or know something takes over and the person misses everything in between. It is sad. Really sad!

This kind of expection is constantly happening around us. I have been a victim of this and have also put expectations on others and myself and realised that it just hinders the path, makes the destination feel further away and stops you in your tracks. I learned a long time ago to release any expectations on others. The best thing I can do for myself now is just be, be in the moment and allow others to do what they do and be who they are. I also learned that it is important that I also do that for myself. I recognise when I feel the sense of expectation come up, and I release it. Again, I am not referring to the basic expectations of everyday living. I am referring to the expectations that everyone is the same and should do things the same. This is when you enter into dark territory which allows anger to take residence within you.

I wonder how many out there have unrealistic expectations? Do you have any or have you been in a similar situation? I would love to hear your thoughts to this post. Leave a comment below and share with our beautiful community.

Until next time.

Be blessed.

Isabella xo

Children are our biggest teachers when it comes to listening to our creative selves! I remember telling my sister to allow her eldest daughter (4 years old) to be creative when she gets that feeling. She must get it out as it is an urging and bursting feeling, which must be let out. My sister does allow her to do this and the beautiful things that come out of my niece are incredible. Allowing our children to become inspired this way assists in them becoming more in tune with their creativity and more in tune with their soul. It allows our children to become intuitive adults and to trust their own intuition. As a creative myself, I know, firsthand, that when you get that sudden burst of creative energy flowing through you, you must find a way to express it, otherwise it disappears. I also believe that it does find a conduit to come through, so if you ignore your creative side, the energy of the inspiration will then disperse to someone allowing it to come through.
A good friend of mine once told me that when the energy (ideas) come, if you choose not to do anything with it, it will continue through space and bounce until someone acts upon it.
Think about that for a moment! Think about whether you are choosing to act on your creative impulses and if not, have you seen them elsewhere?
When I was about 14 years old, music and art were my passion. I would write my own songs then compose the music to the lyrics. I remember waking up one morning so inspired that I wrote a complete song. I never showed anyone and I never sang it to anyone as I was too afraid of rejection, embarrassment and ridicule. Then a few months later, we were heading home and I was half asleep in the back seat of the car when a song came on the radio. It was my song! The music and lyrics were a little different but the essence was the same. I didn’t understand how this could happen and how I would have written something almost identical only a few months before. At the time I thought it just coincidence or I had subconsciously heard it somewhere before – but realised it was a new release and back then there was no internet so you had to wait for the radio to play it before you heard it and now in hindsight, I know there are no such things as coincidence so it was a message.
Had I known to trust in myself, I am not sure what would have happened. I could have possibly recorded it and showed somebody, but now I know that the message is; take your creativity seriously and listen when that burst comes through. I do this with all my creative work now, whether it be music, art or writing.

A couple of things to help our children get started and trust in their own creative energy. I would also practice doing this for yourself if you have never taken the time to do so.
– Allow yourself/your child to get creative, no matter what time it is. Sometimes I get creative bursts at 3am! Get up, or have a notepad nearby and write the idea down.
– Allow yourself/your child to act on the creative energy. If the idea brings about joy and excitement, then note it down somewhere and begin to create it – whichever form it takes.
– Let go of what you think it should look like and allow it to flow through you and become what it is meant to be. Let go of any pressure. Once you do, the creative energy will flow with ease and you will be amazed at the results. Putting pressure on the outcome takes you out of the creative energy and puts you in anxiety mode. Stay in the moment and trust!

We are all creative beings. We all come from Spirit and our physical form allows us to express what is in our heart and soul with love, only if we allow it to. Our creativity is our passion, our fire, our way. Let it burn through you!

I would love to hear your thoughts to this post or if you have a story you would like to share.

Until next time.

Be blessed
Isabella xo

This past month has been one of excitement, change and motion – to put it in a nutshell. My nights are as busy as my days and finding some down time has been almost impossible! I found myself running around (literally) to make appointments, and squeezing in time to honour myself with very brief writing and rituals and tending to my family and commitments. I found myself having to catch my breath and just ground myself. When things begin to manifest, they take on a life of their own and if you blink you may miss the opportunity to enjoy the process.

I was offered a placement to exhibit my artwork recently in a local art gallery. The first time it came up, I was excited, overwhelmed and extremely scared. I felt like a child on Christmas morning opening a gift that I had been waiting for all my life and felt the magick in and around me. However, this fear kept on rearing through my excitement and I came up with every excuse you could think of to postpone the meeting to make the date. Then, as I was giving up on the idea, I decided to go through my artwork. Among my sketches and pieces, I found a beautiful letter from my eldest daughter which was written about 10 years ago. Reading her beautiful words, I realised that if I don’t go ahead, I was not giving myself the opportunity to grow, and was allowing my fear to take over my life. Reading her words “Mum, I am so proud of you. You are a real artist and I love you”. WOW! Talk about a message!
You see, I was struggling on recognising myself as an artist, even though art has always been a part of my life. I was struggling to see my work as professional, because I am self taught. I was struggling to see the beauty that others might see because I thought I wasn’t good enough to exhibit to outsiders and I was struggling to believe that I am an artist!
Tears filled my eyes as I remembered that one of my greatest intentions is to teach my children that it is never too late to live your dreams and that you should never, ever give up. So, I decided that I would pick a few to show at the next meeting (and not postpone it). The most amazing thing happened when I woke the next morning. I felt no fear. The fear had completely diminished. All that was left was excitement and a feeling of peace.
I met with the wonderful coordinator as she was finishing up speaking with another artist who had just finished exhibiting her own work. We spoke about a few things and I found that everything I was feeling was real, and that I was not alone. There is a fear that comes up whenever you are feeling vulnerable and when you are literally on show. However, I walked with my fear and just allowed. It came time to show some of my pieces and they were in awe of the beauty. I loved hearing their feedback and decided to go ahead with the exhibit.
Now, I am in the preparation stage of compiling all my artworks for the exhibit happening at the end of the year and I am so excited to share this part of my life with the world (or whomever chooses to come lol)
So, now, I would like to share some strategies on firstly recognising fear, even when it feels justified and then dealing with it. I used this and it worked wonderfully, however, you may choose to pick a few points or do it all. Whatever resonates with you is fine, just know that you are worthy of success and you are worthy of whatever it is you are working towards, so, take it on, let it happen and stop sabotaging yourself.

– Feel it.
This is one of the most important parts of the process. What does this opportunity which is presenting feel like? Does it feel good? Exciting? Scary (good scary)? Recognise the feeling. Allow the feeling to come up and honour it. Does it make you feel happy? If so, then you know it is part of your path. If you are feeling tired, confused or feeling like it’s a chore, then let it go. It may not be for you. Recognise the feelings coming up and recognise if it is something you are wanting for your own success.
– Self talk
Ahh, this is one step we should all be paying attention to. What is your self talk around this opportunity? I know when I first got the offer to exhibit, one of the first things which came up was “You aren’t as good as the other artist” and “Who would buy your work?” These are horrible things to say to yourself and I know I would never say this to somebody else. This is ego at its best. Ego likes to stay in its own comfort zone. Ego says no to change and then creates fear! (I talk extensively about how to deal with Ego in my book ‘The process of forgiveness and letting go’)
– Fear
Wouldn’t it be lovely to go through life without fear? Imagine how many more risks (good successful risks) you would take if fear didn’t stop you. Would you want to be looking back on your life in 10 years saying ‘What if’. Fear will come hand in hand with ego, so be aware. Also, it is important to note here that when fear does come up, it is usually connected to our vulnerability of showing our true selves.
– Vulnerability
There is something so magical and amazing about being vulnerable with your own work. When I received my first copy of ‘Whispers of an Angel’ I went into panic mode, pacing up and down, questioning whether I made the right choice and if people would like it. (Ego and fear both came in) Then I began to receive amazing emails and messages about how the book changed people and made them feel wonderful. I took a risk and allowed myself to be vulnerable and let it go.
– Breath
Yes. It’s that simple. Breath.
– Is it your truth?
This is when you ask if it is what you want. If the answer is yes, then why are you questioning it?
– Recognise your sabotage
Are you sabotaging your success by postponing it? This is a question only you can answer. All I can say is if you are not taking it on, fully taking it on and you have asked for it (and the Universe is listening) then you are the only one hurting yourself.
– Recognise excuses
‘Oh, I am too busy’
‘The kids need me more now’
‘I don’t have the time’
Blah, blah, blah. These are all excuses. Stop. Make time. It is your time. Take the opportunity and allow it to grow. The kids, pets, family, whatever, will all be fine. Now, allow your soul to get on path and go for it.
– Universal signs
Is the Universe giving you signs that this is one of the paths you must take? Are you listening? Are you choosing to ignore them? You will see it and feel it when it comes up (Just like the letter I found in my artwork!)
-Do it.
That’s it. The final step is, just go for it, do it and allow it to unfold. The Universe works in such a miraculous way that you will not be given anything you are not ready for. So, what are you waiting for? Go for it. Be you!

I would love to hear your thought to this post. Leave me a comment below to share your own experience.

Until next time

Be blessed

Isabella xo

I was working hard on preparing for a position which I applied for, which I thought at the time would help align me with my purpose in life. It was a little unconventional and a little out of left field and something so far removed from my life, that I felt there was a reason for me to be training and working hard to get into this position. I was enjoying the process, although it felt like forever to get to the next step. The overall application process took close to five months! Many would have given up half way through and to tell you the truth, the idea had crossed my mind, but I sought it through to the end.
The day came to meet with the panel for the final stage and it all went well. I walked out feeling like it was going my way and it felt positive, although, there was a lingering feeling of the unknown and I couldn’t really place my finger on it. I just allowed myself to continue to go through the process and allow the Universe to do what it does.

In the same week, I was going through some personal shifts within myself and also reassessing situations in my life which no longer served me. Throughout this time, I was also letting go of a lot of the past, many relationships which felt (and were) toxic and was doing a full blown spiritual, physical and psychological cleanse. Things blew up, glasses broke and shattered into a million pieces and people were coming into my life to add beauty and love and some were just disappearing from my life which no longer served their purpose.

As I was going through this massive shift and grieving a part of me which felt lost, trying to find her again, I received a call to advise me that I was not successful in the position. The main reason being that I am too cheerful (to put it in a nutshell)! I can now laugh about it and laugh really loud. Of all the lame excuses I’ve heard over my life time, this had to top the cake. However, at this time, I was going through a process of letting go and shedding things from my life and this added ‘salt to the wound’. I could not understand what was going on. I was so confused and felt so alone, and felt really, really embarrassed and angry!
I took a few days to really honour my feelings, to get angry, sad, feel the confusion and the embarrassment and really allow myself to feel deeply and truly. I journalled a lot through this time and spoke of my feelings to the ones I feel closest too. I allowed myself to cry and to really try to understand it all. Finally, I decided to let it all go. I decided that if this was the Universe’s way of protecting me, then so be it, although I needed some sort of confirmation about what it all meant.

My dreams and messages came through quite strong at this time and I found myself, every now and then asking the question ‘Why?’

Then, something absolutely miraculous happened. I was sitting taking a rest one night and I get a message from a colleague offering me work! I was so excited I responded immediately. This is not where it stops though. The following day, I received a call to exhibit my art work in a gallery and then I get some news regarding my books from my publishers! By the following week, the Universe had given me my answer as to why I didn’t get the initial one. I understand now that I would not have had time to really and truly be me. I have worked for a long time to really come to a place in my life where there is no shame in saying what I do, and I am a creative being. Many other messages came through conversations and listening to stories and I feel more at peace now. However, had I continued to stay angry or in a strut, then I believe that all these things could not have manifested as quickly.

This is just the beginning. You decide, every moment of everyday whether you go forward or stay stagnant. You are the only one who can decide to take your power back and to honour your feelings and to really trust in the Universe to provide for you exactly what you need.
I did this. I allowed myself to honour every emotion, to let go and allow the new. I trusted that is what it took to push me into the next phase of my life and I welcomed my Higher Self to speak her truth.

The Universe is listening to your every desire, your every thought and your every vibration. It is understanding your feelings before you do and knows which way to take you. Trust in the process and allow yourself to be One with All.

I am now welcoming bigger and more exciting challenges ahead and I am grateful for this experience.

Have you had a similar experience? I would love to hear your thoughts.
Enjoy the month of May and be blessed.

Until next time
Isabella xo

If you are, then this little ritual is a great way to begin this amazing month of April. It is also a powerful month for the Archangels to come in and help anyway they can. It is time to really step up, step into your power and call on these amazing energies to increase your awareness and live fully and purposefully.

With everything in life, it is important you only do what resonates with you. This is just a simple guide. You may adjust it slightly to honour your own traditions. The importance of this ritual is to make sure you understand and speak your intentions from your heart and soul – without allowing ego to interfere.

So, whenever you are ready, take a seat and begin. Allow yourself the time to go through this ritual. The most powerful time to do this is on the day of the New Moon (Thursday April 7th). Any time of day is fine as long as your intention is to create the intentions for this month with a pure and clear heart, you cannot go wrong.

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Take the time to set up your space. I like to light some candles, burn some sage and create a sacred space.
Get your pen and paper ready to write from your heart. Listen with intention to your soul and when you are ready, you will know what to write.
Take a few minutes or so to meditate and raise your vibration. At this time, you may like to invite your guides, angels and the Archangels (or whomever you feel to invite into your space). Allow them to come into your space. Feel their presence and the love embrace you.
Once you are ready, begin to write down your intentions. Write them positively and in the present tense. If you are unsure how to word them, ask the Divine beings to help you understand what it is and how to articulate it. You may want an extra $1000 this month or to invite new loving friendships into your life. Whatever it is, ask for it and allow yourself to write it, without judging it and definitely without placing conditions on it. Do not think about the how, just ask for it.
As you write your intentions, feel it beginning to come to you. Feel the Universe hearing your prayers. Allow the energy to raise you to the feeling of having it already. Stay in this feeling for a while.
Once you have finished writing your intentions, it is crucial you finish with “For the highest good of all concerned”. You may like to write this at the end of each intention or at the end of the page. Do what feels right for you in the moment and have a clear and loving heart with all that you ask for.

Now it is time to just allow it to come. You may like to meditate for an hour or a few minutes. Close down your sacred space and thank your Divine beings for assisting you in this process. You may like to leave an offering of tobacco or food to be transmuted once you are done. You may like to leave the candle burning down (safely) or put it out for the next ritual.

Take your intentions on your paper and place them on your alter or somewhere safe. You may like to look back at them in a month’s time and alter or change some things or leave them. It is completely up to you.
The final thing is to completely let it go. Trust the Universe, the angels and all the Divine beings to bring you gifts in the way they know how. Feel it in your heart that you deserve the happiness you crave and know that you are completely taken care of.

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I would love to hear your thoughts to this post.

Until next time

Be blessed

Isabella xo

This next and final part of the process is intense and can get quite deep. Relax and allow yourself to be freed from the beliefs which no longer serve you to then really take in all that you desire into your life.
If you have been following the three part blog, you will now have an awareness of some of the things which may be holding you back. You may be surprised as to what has come up from your unconscious and now trying to recognise the reality of it. Let me assure you that if you are following these steps, then any memory is real, any feeling is real and anything that is coming to you is real. Make sure your intention is clear and strong and positive. Make sure you allow the time to heal the old wounds and give yourself permission to now release them. With this process, you will liberate yourself to a whole new level and never look back.

Take out your journal where you have recognised the beliefs and recognised some memories. You may like to do a small meditation or ritual before you begin; like lighting a candle and invoking your angels and guides. Do what feels right for you. Have the intention to release all the beliefs which may be holding you back now, and which do not serve you for your highest good.

Once you feel relaxed and ready, go back into your journal. You may like to begin with something which feels small and easy. There is no particular order in which to do this. Let your intuition guide you.

You have already taken the time to recognise your beliefs, recognise where they came from and now it is time to release them and replace them with much more beneficial beliefs. Look at the first belief you would like to release. Imagine yourself going back into that memory. Relax and go back into the memory as an observer, rather than experiencing it again. This is very important, especially for trauma memories. You must detach from the experience and see it rather than experience it again. If you need to, ask someone to help guide you through this. Once you are in the memory as an observer, see how you reacted. Now, take your time and breathe. Allow yourself to take in the learning, the blessing and once you have done this, see yourself cutting any ties/cords that are tying you to this belief. Surround the whole scene in pink light (Fairy floss is good for this) and release it. Give it up to your guides or your angels and see it floating so gently away from you. Feel the belief being lifted from your Soul and once you feel it is gone, ask your guide/angels to now replace that belief with one which is more powerful for you. Do not ask for a specific belief. The Divine Beings will know exactly what to replace it with for your highest good. Make sure your intention is clear to have the belief be replaced by one with love.

Do this for each of your beliefs you would like to replace. This process takes time. It takes patience and a lot of love. Be kind to yourself throughout the whole process. If you feel you are a little stuck, move onto the next one.
This can be done over a period of time, although each individual is different. Try one or two to begin with and then give yourself a couple of weeks break in between to allow them to settle into your consciousness.

Now, the next step is to watch things begin to happen for you which you only ever dreamed about. Allow it, accept it and know that you deserve it.

I wish you well on this journey of manifesting and recognising your beliefs. I would love to hear how it is working for you. Leave me a comment below and share your experience with us all.

Until next time.

Be blessed.

Isabella xo

The next part of recognising where beliefs stem from is a continuation of the work you began last week. This requires some work and patience.

Set aside some time where you will not be disturbed.

Take out your notebook from where you began to write the feelings/beliefs next to what you are wanting to manifest.

Ask your guides or angels to help you recognise where this belief system came from.

You may like to perform a small meditation before you begin to get into a really relaxed state. Do what feels right for you and do not judge what comes to you. Just write.

From the feelings and the beliefs, extend this to go into memory to recognise where it came from.

You may then get a flashback or memory to when you were a child. You may recall a conversation with your parents or someone you admired. You may remember seeing something significant. Whatever it is, write it. Do not attach yourself to outcome. The purpose of this exercise is to understand where the belief came from. You may get something so small that it may seem insignificant, however, let me assure you that it is not. As children, we are so impressionable and take in more and more over time, without being conscious of it.

Keep a journal of anything else that comes up for you. Thank your guides and angels for their help and come back to it when you feel you are ready to move onto the next one. This is a process which should be treated with respect and love and a personal journey for you to really begin to manifest all of your dreams and desires.

Next week I will share with you the final part which is releasing the belief from your spiritual body and replacing it with a more conducive belief, to help you grow and reach your highest goals.
I hope you enjoyed this blog. I would love to hear your thoughts. Post a comment to share your experience with us all.

Until next time

Be blessed

Isabella xo

Take some time to clear your mind either through relaxation techniques, breathing or meditation. You may come up with your own little ceremony here. There is not only one way. Just allow yourself to relax and call on any Divine Beings you choose to help you.

Have a pen and paper ready to begin.

Now begin writing everything you want. Be extreme and do not think about how or when, just write it all down. Writing it down firstly gives it power and secondly helps you to see it in front of you without just thinking about it.

Once you have written down everything you want in point form, go back to the first one, read it out to yourself and pay attention to any thoughts or feelings coming up. You may have written “I want a new house with an extra bedroom and large back yard”. Read it aloud and notice how you feel. Do you feel excited or disheartened? Write down how you feel about it next to it. Once you write down how you feel, try to understand why you feel this way. If you are feeling disheartened, note down the thoughts which are crossing your mind…”I can’t afford to move, I don’t have enough money, I don’t deserve it” Once you have those thoughts down, you have recognised the belief behind the manifestation and why it is stopping you.
In the next blog, we take it a step further and try to understand where this belief system stems from, however for now, this is the process to recognise them.

Once you recognise your beliefs then it will make it a lot easier to manifest and take action toward your goal. Try it for yourself and I promise you will be amazed at what you get.

Next week, I will share with you part two of this blog and how to recognise where the belief stems from. Part three will show you how to release them completely and create new belief systems to help with your spiritual growth and to help in manifesting everything you desire.

I would love to hear your thoughts to this blog. Post a comment below and share your experience with us all.

Until next time

Be blessed

Isabella xo

Spiritual awakening is a great euphoric experience. It can take you to levels and awareness greater than the mind can conceive, although the process may not be so pleasant.

This is not something to be feared. This is something that must be embraced. You see, as you awaken, the ego must be silenced long enough for you to know your truth. If you are constantly in your head, then ego has all the power. Awakening on a deep level requires the silencing of ego, which is what happens when one becomes still and meditates.

I recently went through a period of great awakening. At the time, nothing made sense to me. I was not myself or anybody else and I felt lost in my world, almost disassociated from life itself. I felt a little crazy – as whenever I looked around, I had absolute gratitude and love for my life – but something was stirring deep within me; something was changing and I didn’t know how to ‘fix’ it!
I chose to embrace it and not fight it. I chose to just listen. I chose to isolate myself for a little while and write out all my feelings. I found myself going back in time, thinking back to my childhood and choices I made along the way. Many of the memories are happy ones, and some are not so happy, and I have found that not only are these thoughts and memories creeping in, they are also coming up in conversations with my children, family and friends. At one point, I felt as though I didn’t actually know myself. I would reflect back on the past and realise that I was so disconnected to that person; I felt disconnected, afraid and lost.

Throughout this whole period, I had moments of absolute sadness. I would cry at the drop of a hat, I would feel down, angry and hurt. The problem was not with that; it was the fact that I didn’t know why I was feeling this way.

Then I woke from a dream feeling light, refreshed and completely new.
I had purged all that I was stirring within me through dream state. All that was subconscious, came through in the dream and it was powerful. Things I felt had no relevance to life now, were released and awakening happened on a completely new level.

There may have been some resistance on my part in waking life where I chose not to look at the feelings, or honour them as such. Although, some of those memories were so deeply engrained that subconsciously I was purging them and feeling the effects consciously.
Awakening is not a fluffy, happy go lucky event until the end. Although in saying that, there is true beauty in being able to truly feel the emotions on the deepest level and then release them.
Awakening is a process, as with anything. As I continue to process this awakening, I am still looking at parts of my life and wondering what the next step is. The only difference though is that there is no pressure to do anything. I have complete trust that it will come.

Below are some symptoms which you may relate to;
– Constant fatigue
– Feeling sad or overwhelmed
– Disrupted sleep
– Feeling physical pain (that cannot be explained)
– Overly sensitive to sounds, lights and crowds
– Feeling the need to be alone
– Feeling the need to cry
– Awareness of old belief systems
– Pain in shoulders and neck
– Feeling something is stirring within you

There are many more symptoms, although I have just outlined a few. The way to deal with the Spiritual awakening is to allow the process to unfold. Write down what you are feeling and follow your intuition. Spiritual Awareness is a constant process and can happen at any time and many times throughout your life. Allow, let go and grow. We are never finished until we go back to Source!

I would love to hear your thoughts. Post a comment below and let me know what you think or how you have gone through one of your own awakenings.

Until next time.

Be blessed

Isabella xo

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